2/16/19

First Letter

My dearest Justin,

It’s been 11 days since you left this earth. And for 11 days, I’ve felt an emptiness like no other kind. I go back and forth between sadness and anger. I’m sad that you were taken from us so soon and couldn’t live out the extraordinary life that you began to live. I’m angry that you had to suffer so much, especially your last month with us. You will always be the strongest person I know…a true superhuman warrior. Just in case you don’t know what an amazing human you were and spirit that you are, here’s a little reminder…

You loved life. You made the best of every situation. You smiled through the pain and found joy in all things. You didn’t hold onto bad feelings. You cared about everyone. And you showed your heart to anyone who was interested. During your short time on this earth you inspired, you persevered, you learned, you taught, you listened, you laughed, you cried, you danced and you loved. I’ve never known anyone like you nor will I ever again. You had a gift for connecting with people on a deeper level…at the core. You understood things about life that most people are never able to figure out. For many months we were praying for a miracle to keep you here with us. But in the end it was obvious that you were the miracle all along.

Thank you for being an amazing human being….for showing us what life is truly about ….for fighting as hard as you could to stay with us. Thank you for being the best son a mother could ask for. And the best little brother. Thank you for allowing me to care for you and love you. And thank you for loving me. I miss you every second of every day and carry you in my heart now & always. I know that you’re in Grandma Ferda’s arms watching over all of us with a great big smile. Keep dancing sweetie. I love you.

Love,

Mommy

xoxo